Sunday, December 30, 2012
Chewing Pills
Thought it would be
A good idea
To write to her
Admitting all the twists and trips and slips and
Wreckage
Of the days since I left
Explaining, or trying to
Why it hurts so bad
And how every moment
I spend screaming
And she stays silent
Feels like I’m back there
Chewing pills
All over
But I won’t call the cops this time
I won’t spend a night
With the addict lady
In the white room
With holes in the walls
There’s only the ink
And the page
And how much love kills
So I sent it
Along with more money
Than I can afford to give
So maybe at least
One of us
Will live
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
Lost
While you were gnawing on my mood
I looking, I guess, for escape
Or to Improve my Point-of-View
Lost you then?
The absence rushes in against this old dam
I'm not stronger than
I used to think that I had been
Lost the key
While by the lonely door I kneeled
I can see you near me
But your thoughts are sealed
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
RelaX
Grass green, Silver street
Median to mashed
Short on cash
Muscles clench
then Relax
Force taxed on Fragile form
After Sunset
Reset by dawn
Human curse, cruisin' Hearse
Erasing fate, embraced pavement
Yellow lights or White
To Red too fast
As time like Rush hour cars Pass
Breaking Fast as they're braking Fast
Not fast enough to last, crashed
Crunch, by Lunch forgotten
Move on, Life's too short
Day's too long
Resort to Rabid Racing
Gotta get there, Get back
Lose track, loose seams
Rip, Shred, Scream
Red shirt, stained jeans
Monday, November 12, 2012
Young November
Friday, September 21, 2012
The Carousel of Kings
That you may kiss a glimpse of
God
Tip-toe 'round heresy
And cuddle up
Upon the bleeding altar
I'll set a c-note flaming
With salted speckles in
Both my eyes
But offer
My very last dollar
To these gilded
Paupers
I'll dance like a drunkard
No,
I'll slump my shoulders
And cradle my brow
And clutch my wanting cup
And tap the table
Off.........beat
Like a drunkard
Like a prophet
Scraping his chest
With yellowing nails
I'll call your bluff
Believe me I will
One of these days
But for now,
A bottle of water?
$1.25
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
notforprofit
Friday, September 7, 2012
Peasantry
Skin it slow and steady
Pick apart the stringy tendons
I had a life that I gave up for who knows why
Grinned like I was ready
Sickened as my goodbye set in
But this road is a wristwatch
With a band that's far too tight
Ticking off the constant miles
My numbing hands would try and fight
I've got nowhere to go but back to breathing
Choking down the rhetoric
From suits on the radio
I move so slow with calloused feet
Shuffling and hesitant
With seeds I cannot sow
'Cause this heat is a gateway
With a lock my key won't fit
Stacked all up with iron chains
On cracking earth I sorely sit
Pass the pool where angels stir
And you speak down to me,
"what do you want?"
As if you cannot see...
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Someone Else's Yard (lyrics)
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Sand in Your Shoes
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Leaves of Thought
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
I Love You, He Said
...in the sense that I weigh every possible implication and consequence of calling you and just before I hit send still have no idea what I'm going to say.
...in the sense that the air in the room feels different against my skin when you are, may be, or have been in it.
...in the sense that I have a hard time trusting people, and you could absolutely ruin my life if you wanted to.
...in the sense that you probably already have ruined my life, and that's perhaps the best thing that's ever happened to me.
...in the sense that I want to tell you a secret that might make you hate me.
...in the sense that if I bump into you today, I'd like to think I'd recognize you, but even if I don't it won't stop me from loving you.
...in the sense that I don't really know you, andbutso I want to.
...in the sense that "I love you" has become a cliche placeholder for selfish romantic desire and all I really want is to sit with you here while life happens around us and then get up and be a part of life happening but, yknow, together, except that's all still about what I want, and really who cares what I want, because...
...in the sense that what do you want?
Saturday, August 25, 2012
My Situation
You don't know my story, but
You know my situation
I could be anyone, but
I'm me
You don't know me, but
You know my situation
Easy enough when I'm
A nuisance,
A nut,
A non-entity,
Or worse—
A novelty.
Look me in the face sometime
And tell me again how there's no place for me
No, really, tell me what you mean
If you can speak to me at all
I'll write, I'll call
You'll transfer me so cordially
But I'm far too rich to be poor
And yet too poor to be manageable
I fit inside the miscellaneous bin
The lost and found at the end of the semester
Right between the gym sock and the retainer
Can't donate me or donate to me
Not that I want charity
But I do get hungry sometimes
And it's safer inside at night, yknow
So when you're kind enough to buy her that water bottle
That says it helps bring clean water to African children
And as you're handing it down to her, she says she doesn't want it
She has the audacity to refuse
On the grounds that the company is lying
And you storm off, thinking how arrogant she is
To reject your kindness, your money you spent on that bottle
Only to find out online that she was damn right about the company
And if only you had known, you wouldn't have bought it
But what did she know
You didn't know her story, but
You knew her situation
Like you'll know mine
When you see me across the room
Still wearing clothes I brought from before
Typing on a laptop I got as a gift
Driving a car I didn't buy myself
Sitting in your cafe like I have something worthwhile to be doing
Using up your space and your air-conditioning and your free wifi
Well, I guess I
I'm sorry
I'll just get out of your way
Because I know you know my situation
When public space becomes "your way"
And people like me are secretly "someone else's problem"
Instead of just people
So don't ask me about my situation
You know my situation, but
You don't know me
'Cause man, I'm just people
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Tip of My Tongue
With a tongue that's cut like leather to let the stuffing waft on out
Trying to iron out the wrinkles and fill in all the cracks
That run the twisted sidewalks down which I can't turn back
So I stumble into traffic amidst swerving conversations
Bisecting what was said from what was pure imagination
Or those perfect almost moments when your stare stung to my marrow
And the tightrope that I walked with you somehow began to narrow
Your shaking head on my breathless chest
In restlessness you reinvest
Then re-suppress to my duress
And dress it up with emptiness
Till farewells fade and all that's stayed
Is staid for you and a blade for me
To cut this leather like effigy
And burn the stuffing that's nothing but bluffing
Playing at longing
Masking the moments
That will always matter
That will
Always
Shatter
That will
Always
Sit on the tip of my tongue
Not spat
Nor swallowed
But held
Precarious
Sunday, August 19, 2012
To Catch a Mouse
Spreading shaky wings
To gauge the wind
On a power line
Downtown
The gates swing wide then shut
And her eyes, this city girl
Watch in horror
As he slides
Death's descent
To catch a mouse
Verisimilitude.
Friday, August 17, 2012
Mend (lyrics)
Sunday, August 12, 2012
remnants and redundancy
And we both look so small inside
With dreams bigger than both of us
And no idea who we can trust
From about a thousand miles away
We speak with words that we can't say
Of what we'd do to make a change
And what we'd change to make a way
Friday, August 10, 2012
The Dog of the Month is Named Entropy
The potent irreplaceable
The hoped for ineffaceable
ecstatic inspirational
Confound me oh desirous manifestations
I stand on the edge of the infrastructure
Make a living to keep on living
Not really living, not really giving much
Of a care, or to art, or to hope for
One day in, barely,
And honestly, I can't stand it
Don't tell me I need to be a part of your world to change it
Don't tell me I'm not a part of your world
Simply because its ills don't kill me
Its ills still ill me
Just don't quite thrill me
Though they might still be relevant
As means, not ends
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
More or Less
I'm utterly vacuous and tempest-tossed
I'm more than vacant, I'm more than scared
I'm entirely unoccupied and unprepared
I'm more than questions, I'm more than doubts
I'm starting to walk like one who went without
I'm more than present, I'm more than past
I'm something unaccomplished that may yet still last
I'm more than rhythm, I'm more than rhyme
I'm the space between your logic that beats out of time
I'm more than drinking, I'm more than food
I'm the bleeding beggar, becoming bitter and rude
I'm more than apathy, I'm more than unfair
I will smile in a tragedy, and cry like I was there
I'm more than a dreamer, I'm more than a fraud
I will storm out of your chapel just to catch a glimpse of God
I'm more than a hypocrite, I'm more than a fool
I will break every commandment, and make up an empty rule
I'm more than a sinner, I'm more than the fall
I'm only a human, and sometimes I'm barely that at all
I'm more than the moment, I'm more than heresy
I'm something like an answer that is not yet clear to me
I'm more than frightened, I'm more than poor
But not enough to matter to the crowds that I adore
Sunday, August 5, 2012
Oobleck
Of unrequited desire
Seemingly infinite in its destructive scope, is
Yet meticulously precise with
Nostalgic resonance.
It is a strange twist
That such devoted focus on
Another
So often becomes
A most viral
And corruptive force of
Purely narcissistic
Ends.
That I would look on
The shape of another's
Character
And only see the missing piece of
My own puzzle
Is not Love,
Though for some accursed reason
We keep calling it so.
No,
Love is a non-Newtonian fluid,
And as such, when forced,
Will put up such a sternly determined and
Dedicated opposition
As to rival and perhaps even mimic or become that
of hate's great walls.
However,
With time, patience,
A gentle hand, a listening ear, and
Some subtle skill,
There is a welcoming gesture
To be found
In Love,
As that given unto a
Long-awaited friend.
Love can love the builder of a wall,
But Love will not break through that wall,
Save for the builder taking it down
Brick by stubborn brick
In purposeful reply
To Love's whispered beckoning
From across the other side.
So
Love loud but not in yelling.
Love strong but not in forcing.
Love fully but not in possessing.
And
Love recklessly but not in ignorance.
Love fearlessly but not without trembling.
For it is dangerous to try and
Walk this road alone, but
It is far more dangerous
To forget that
We don't have to.
(And that inconsolable soliloquy
Is perhaps your line
In a much broader chorus.)
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Constitution Hall
And you can ride from the suburbs to the city
Needles, just two for a dollar
And you can ride from the suburbs to the city
Somewhere by the delaware river
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Ready, Set...
So look out, here I go
Straight into the arms of a question mark
Little sparks at my feet for the lonely dark
But hark I hear a long forgotten song
Somewhere far off, as it grows strong,
Guess it's here I go, time to join along...
Monday, July 16, 2012
Flint and Steel
I remember the news those nights, back when they actually cared to show us where the money went. Explosions like fireworks shot forth across some distant desert sky, and vengeance would be ours. The next day we would get out the broom of patriotism and shoo the facts under the rug. We destroyed hospitals, homes, families. But our leaders continued to give us reasons, continued to simplify the calls for unity, even when no evidence could be found to further justify their claims for lethal force.
As I grew older, it was no longer simply the older brothers, distant relatives, or neighbors sons, but my own peers who left to fight. Vague motivations such as freedom, democracy, and duty filled the lips of those who knew they couldn't pay for college where the government might. As more and more of "our side" and "their side" died, the line between justice and commerce blurred. The war had spread in relative silence to so many fronts that it was only a matter of time before the violence came back around and hit us at home.
All this time, as the elected officials squabbled over party ties and monetary backers, leaders rising and falling only to be replaced by differently dressed clones, the true rulers, the corporate bosses, worked their tentacles into the minds of the populous. Until the intellectual and economic balancing act of the past decades finally caught a snare, and the gamble of the nation came back empty.
Now the lines have been drawn. There are those who live in quiet complacency, but daily the tension rises. Harder and harder to ignore are the cries of the oppressed and downtrodden. As the mighty rich waste and cheat and stomp all across the land, those that are enslaved in debt and empty promises must rise and say enough. The empire is going to fall. Either you are going with it, or you must realize that its ways are empty. We are in the streets. We are you. We are in the streets. Are you with us?
Friday, July 13, 2012
Stitches in Dawn
And hunger tastes so deeply sweet
What withers within this crippled grip
Never pleases like what I cannot reach
And when that faint hint of dawn appears
Revealed through slitted window pane
It never holds such promises
As it did last night for tired brain
Once again, I spent all night
Lost in the turns of another's song
Each ever after to bring me back
To my disappointing ever on
Yet still I'll hope and nearly hope
Till feet are sore and throat too dry
To sing the tune that I once knew
So I'll make it up right till I die
Thursday, July 12, 2012
U?S?A?
With their hands over their hearts are very likely to object
But if I then must subject myself to this neglect
Just to be patriotic, I'd rather you just inject
That poison into my veins right now and not later
Before I become too cynical or another old hater
Watch it flow through the I.V. as I wriggle wildly
Boy, it'd be a sight to see, or maybe they'll just fry me
For now they simply ask that I stay silent so politely
And hope that I stay mildly excited by the thriving
Entertainment they've provided on call
And by they I mean we, because we pay for it all
But mostly we just pay for all the guns overseas
What's some blood in the sand for the gas in our SUVs
Peace is cheaper but we'd rather the reaper be on our payroll
Cashing in the check that bounces debt to dig a bigger hole
Hoping no one notices that we've replaced the government
With corporations that we pay to outsource who will govern it
And then inflate the hype about who loves us and who hates us, why?
So we can say it all makes sense why our neighbors' sons all had to die
But back at home their peers are told to study hard for a career
Then graduate to get in line and find that there are no jobs here
So pack it up and pack it in
Then spend and spend and spend again
Till all that's left is cake and circus
Generation: where's my purpose?
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Hear the Sound
Then wake to find that nothing's changed
I'd rather dream of distant hopes
Then strive for them through all my days
Thursday, June 14, 2012
pERFECT/imPerfect
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Black Suit and Tie
Solitary
I am a pebble in the stream bed
I am the last bit of glass in the carpet
I am a shell upon the seashore
Wake me up when you’re finished finding yourself
I am a lock on this door you won’t open
I am a sign on the side of this dark road
I’m waiting for the other side
But I am
I am
Thursday, May 24, 2012
None but the Imbalance
But that's only because
I know if I go searching
Deeper and deeper
There's no reason
For my kind of crazy
Only me
So I picture the summers soft and warm
With lessons to teach and a more apt pupil
Widening gates that flew open in the wild breeze
Flicking leaves upon cobbled paths
I knew in my heart you wouldn't last
dear Mystery
I still reach for you
And I scribble notes of winter's branches:
Heavy coats
The bus comes
Snapping, crunching, sweating cold
Deliberating over blue eyes
Waking to a foreboding calm
Stepping back a ways
Autumn is pretty but it kills that summer vibe
Putting it to bed like some rotten kid
And Springtime is a runny nose set to a pretentious soundtrack
But don't we always put up with promises
Believe in me, please
like I Believe in you?
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Oh, Little One
And no surprise you're all about the moon tonight
Your hands are cold but they fit in mine
Till I wake up and trace over these dotted lines
So don't forget your helmet if you go outside
'Cause the man on the screen said...
And grandpa remembers when trees were real
Back when the house didn't need a plastic seal
Before ohio had a coastline
And your dreams were mine
So don't forget your helmet if you go outside
'Cause the man on the screen said the sun is almost dead
And don't leave your pills on the counter again
But you said "I already ate today"
Monday, May 14, 2012
The Melancholic Martian
As once again the crumbs of consciousness run up ahead of me
My hand is shaking in the car which drowns itself in the garage
My head a twisted, tattered mess, confessed to leave the engine on
But to go inside and then resign, hoping to find some meaning for my vacant life
I'll eat a meal of what may cause my heart to shine its own "check engine" light
But what does it matter if I ever reach a ripe old age
Around this sour fruit you should probably put the pills away
But I often get nostalgic when I'm lonely, so if you're hearing this
I'd like for you to know my life has been a learning experience
So far...
And yes, I do recognize the moments where the weakness wanes
Where choice is almost evident and I know that I give in to it
For what is a moment's happiness to soothe a second's sorrow
When every thought of healing is no more real than is tomorrow
There's a snapping sound at the very top
In ecstasy and aching
And I dare to hope it will not stop
Just as my hand starts shaking
Then off the ladder I will fall
And back again to dark and desperate
But down here you're all so damn beautiful
And I a blight on your collective
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Ballad of a Weatherman
Was all he cared about so he could be like the man on the TV
He would watch the skies and chase the storms and map the ways the weather formed
His interest rose like mercury when the world was warm
And all he had were his dreams
All he wanted was to point behind him and tell you what lie ahead
With a smile and a wink, no need to think about a word he said
You could trust him, yeah
He made it through college and even grad school
Could trace a pressure pattern in his sleep if he had to
So he started work at the local station with the highest hopes and expectations
Fetching coffee and making copies and dreaming of precipitation
Working hard for the man in the suit
All he wanted was to point behind him and tell you what lie ahead
With a smile and a wink, no need to think about a word he said
You could trust him, yeah
After years of working at a desk
He was almost ready to give it a rest
But still he did not give up hope of keeping the townsfolk in the know
So one day they sent him out to track a cyclone all alone
And he swore to the team that he would do his best
All he wanted was to point behind him and tell you what lie ahead
With a smile and a wink, no need to think about a word he said
You could trust him, yeah
Through the wind, across the waves
In yellow boots and coat he taped
From a tiny boat the story of mother nature's wild glory
And though the scene quickly grew quite gory
The remains of the tape still heard him say
"Well folks, I think it's gonna rain."
All he wanted was to point behind him and tell you what lie ahead
With a smile and a wink, no need to think about a word he said
You could trust him, yeah
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Lonely Wolf
Where all the legends lay to rest
And all the secrets don't need keeping
This must be the place where you know a person by their face
But never take the time to know their name
Though you can watch them sleeping
This must be the street where all the people that you meet
Are in every single cliche song
About how great it is to live here
But I don't mean to assume
Don't mean to bring you down
No, this could be just another tired town
This must be the house where you know you'll die alone
Though your mouth still makes the shapes to say
That it looks just like home
This must be the room where you'll take your dying breath
Though if you can move down that donor list
Maybe it won't be your own
But I don't mean to bring you down
Don't mean to assume
No, this could be just another empty room
Place the cigarettes and candy in her casket
Right atop the blanket like a lonely shopping basket
But you make sure the beer's in there, somewhere where she can reach it
Heaven's on our minds, Preacher, but hell is all you're preaching
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Smoking at the Gas Pump
Can it be mine? No, it is far too tall
Here in the corner I feel so small
So near to the shadow upon the wall
Here in this small town made of clay
We wait for the rain to wash our world away
We built up our houses, a safe place to stay
To find comfort and leisure and the weight of the waves
Here in my head there's a thought slowly spinning
The dark, woolen web that I walk is now thinning
To the look of a hundred teeth slyly grinning
As I round the next lap of this race I'm not winning
Here in the dark, there's a soft, hollow laughter
That chips and that clips at all dreams I chase after
That uses no words yet still names itself master
My hands, strung like puppets, bid nigh new disaster
There is a shadow upon the wall
It used to be mine; now it's twenty feet tall
It scrapes at the ceiling, for the wall is too small
And soon it may take us, this clay house and all
Monday, April 30, 2012
I saw a dead person today.
Boxing gloves laced with iron thread 'round my head
Hey that rhymed
Shut up mind!
Grrr...
This is going to be all week isn't it.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Greyman
The mark of curse inside the eye
His wandering stance and shaking hands
Pacing along the floor
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Solicube
to its
particular hue
the shading on the edges
lacks definition
light drips reluctantly
through afterthoughts of holes
poked by the pencil lead
of a giant's pencil's head
that air might flow
stale and bitter
into, of course, this lonesome cell
and i
out through those tiny holes
peer cautious with contention
then back to pacing end to end
from wall to wall of dim-lit cube
my feet begrudging every move
to slide more than step
so as not to wear false airs
of naught but suffocation
or any sort of dry determination
painting pictures on the cardboard walls
with blood and dust and contraband hopefulness
portraits of a faint, forgotten smile
that appears to me in dreams
on the rarest of occasions where sleep agrees
to enter the hovel of a lowly dreamer
and i hold the hand once again
before it grows claws
and kiss the mouth once again
before they grow fangs
and talk of love once again
before i let it down
and it led me down here
Monday, April 23, 2012
Four
One
Two
translucent as fog
smaller than the others
elusive in the white sand
save a single pink blemish
Three
thin as paper and just as frail
wide and long as a tall man's hand
crevices call for cracking between the layers
so many layers, so easily dispersed
Five
smooth as the breeze
speckled in a thousand shades
across a grey so deep the night forgot itself
and shadows slipped into greener hues
Friday, April 20, 2012
In America, We Build Our Steeples Out of the Flagpoles
Anyone who tells you what sin is doesn't know
Anyone who puts themselves up above you
Anyone who finds a "godly" reason not to love you
For we are the facilitators of our own demise
Hell is not so much other people but what we do with them inside our minds
And holy wars are fought every day on city streets
And in the country and the suburbs whenever strangers meet
But I was raised up with the promise that God loves me and you
So when I don't know what I believe, I still believe that much is true
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Is the Well Yet Dry
Streaking out uneven on the edges, like sunspots
Inverted starlight in the dust of the earth
Five little rings, for five little fingers
Little digging fingers that clasp around the dirt
And set loose upon the sky
Dead soil, barren like your brain of late
Anxious that you're out of time
Before you've even begun
That below the dead earth
Is only more dead earth
And those five little circles
Are the only seeds you've left to sow
Their growth a symptom of
Your idealist intoxication
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Wear a Coat
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Granite, Concrete, Dirt, or Cobblestone
Monday, April 2, 2012
Digging for the Rabbit Hole
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Shading Greyscale
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Formidable
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Like a Friend
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Sacred Bus Stop
Come on down to the sacred bus stop
Sing the songs and see the show
Sign the contract, you can wait here
So when the bus comes, you will know
Pay the fare, we’ll pass the plate ‘round
Shake some stranger’s hand, I s’pose
Make sure you’re dressed for the occasion
You can’t leave town in local clothes
Sit on the bench, recite your purpose
For wanting so bad to leave town
Security will check your baggage
Too much will only way us down
But come on down to the sacred bus stop
I know there’s one on every block
But only this one has the right route
They’ll probably take you to a lower stop
All passengers at the sacred bus stop
Trust your driver and get in line
Heaven knows it’s a bumpy road
But the destination will be worth your time
I’m sorry, sir, this is the sacred bus stop
Seems our list is full, this just won’t do
We pride ourselves at the sacred bus stop
On perfect patrons, and that’s not you
#slogan
i think my generation’s broken
perhaps, our spokesman’s too outspoken
we replaced our lungs to fight infection
we replaced our tongues with the comments section
i think my intellect has faded
think i knew so much more before i was jaded
if your suit and collar come with a matching prison cell
where’s the foreclosure sign on this cookie cutter hell
they told me to get a degree
they said that i could be anyone that i wanted to be
they said if i stayed in school, i wouldn’t have to work for free,
but now even they won’t hire me
they told me to get in line
they said there’s something at the end that will be worth my time
they said if i want to be happy, just remove my mind
you can just drop that at the door, i’m sure that you’ll be fine
but we’re looking for something that you can’t erase
looking for something you can’t throw away
looking for more than minimum wage
looking for a life, more than just to get paid
we’re looking for a promise that somebody might keep
to look in the mirror and be proud of what we see
we’re looking for a change in which we could believe
not just a slogan that we know is only short-term relief
you gave me opportunity
you gave me choices
i could go your way and forever be
shackled and voiceless
or i could walk a lonely road like a pariah
which way i’ll go i don’t quite know but my desire is to run, run, run, run, run
...and wouldn’t that be fun
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
How the Peel Must Feel Once Discarded
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Power Play
Saturday, March 3, 2012
chronocide
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Carousel Casserole
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Topiary Expressionism for the Young and Young at Heart
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Barber of the Sphinx
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Odder Still
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Desperate Poetics
Wait for dawn, on your own, so pathetic
Drown in the sleeplessness, desperate poetics
Wear our arguments like designer clothes
No wonder we feel so cold
Custom concepts to inflate empty egos
Only know what we’re sold
Only wear what we’re told
Armor like white roses painted gold
Skim the surface of your mind
Or dive in deeper, till you find
Some kind of originality
Stoke every thought into flame
Look for more than someone else to blame
To lose it would be such a shame, individuality
Take back nothing
Regret’s a slippery concept
Motivation is a kind of debt
We say we owe this ourselves
But essentially we must give up to excel
Ever increasing
The risk is remiss if it’s bliss
If that’s all that we want out of this
We say, “I just want you to be happy.”
When each one of us is so scared to be lonely
You can take the hand
Of every pretty girl on every street you walk down
But just like the moonlight, you’ll be lost in her eyes
Then all will be gone by dawn:
Her, the moon, and you
Only an empty shell with a trophy for a clue
That this tortoise had better places to be
And a hare’s breadth away is too close to call for me
Color now outside the lines
And race the stars across the sky
Do not fear these flaws and fallacies
Set sail for deserts like a king
Headfirst and offer everything
What’s left is more than worth the sting of tragedies
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
checkpoint pt. 1
Monday, January 23, 2012
Saturday, January 21, 2012
And Yet...
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
nothing left to guard
i can’t do this anymore
i am not the man you thought i’d be
i’m not sure who i was before
take it from me
‘cause i can’t feel anything
i’m drowning in a separate song
that only dead men sing
take it from me
these hands weren’t meant to hold
my callous heart has gone too far
and left me somewhere cold
take it from me
the love that’s in your eyes
when you look at me all i can see
a reflection of the one i despise
take it from me
there’s no use in holding on
what i feel will stay forever here
but of course now you are gone
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Sacrilege
To the plastic priestess with the brightest eyes
Her hands raised high inside a modest disguise
While she worships her semantics, frantic for a throne room in the skies
She’ll talk of grace, but look her in the face and you’ll find no second tries
To the sons of study who teach youths how to talk
Raise them up right to be children of a gilded cross
Put shoes of good news on their feet, but with little room to walk
Can the good news get through when all the words of love are lost
Anyway, drunk Jesus and some hungry whores
Are knocking humbly at your mansion doors
But I know these castle walls can hold out the poor
‘Cause really their kingdom was never good enough for yours
So judge me all you like and i’ll try not to judge you
When even the slightest hint of brokenness, you never could much see through
Judge me all you like, ‘cause i’ve no right to judge you
Truth is i’m incredibly broken, and my guess is: so are you