Chewing Pills

So yesterday, I
Thought it would be
A good idea
To write to her
Admitting all the twists and trips and slips and
Wreckage
Of the days since I left
Explaining, or trying to
Why it hurts so bad
And how every moment
I spend screaming
And she stays silent
Feels like I’m back there
Chewing pills
All over
But I won’t call the cops this time
I won’t spend a night
With the addict lady
In the white room
With holes in the walls
There’s only the ink
And the page
And how much love kills
So I sent it
Along with more money
Than I can afford to give
So maybe at least
One of us
Will live

Lost

Lost my way
While you were gnawing on my mood
I looking, I guess, for escape
Or to Improve my Point-of-View

Lost you then?
The absence rushes in against this old dam
I'm not stronger than
I used to think that I had been

Lost the key
While by the lonely door I kneeled
I can see you near me
But your thoughts are sealed

RelaX

Red shirt, Blue jeans
Grass green, Silver street
Median to mashed
Short on cash
Muscles clench
              then Relax
Force taxed on Fragile form
After Sunset
Reset by dawn
Human curse, cruisin' Hearse
Erasing fate, embraced pavement
Yellow lights or White
To Red too fast
As time like Rush hour cars Pass
Breaking Fast as they're braking Fast
Not fast enough to last, crashed
Crunch, by Lunch forgotten
Move on, Life's too short
Day's too long
Resort to Rabid Racing
Gotta get there, Get back
Lose track, loose seams
Rip, Shred, Scream
Red shirt, stained jeans