False Positive

Maybe it's a mistake

Every step I take 

Am I a fake 

And would I know anyway

For hope's sake 

I breath, my breath breaks

I face each day

Barely awake

Reciprocate, the gates

Slam shut in my face

Am I insane

Or ashamed

To blame

My own name 

For the stakes that raise

Their own hoorays

And lackadaisically parade

A frame, ill-fitting and arrayed

Like diamonds displayed

To hide the charade of 

Ten million takes

And give life away

For a chance to change my fate

Like brave, though I'm not

So afraid, what I've caught

May define all I've got

I've sought answers to questions I 

Can't even explain

My deranged fame containing 

Empty strains of neural flames

Bulging brains, genius untamed

And still unable to remain

A moment in time obtained

To hold infinity painted plain

Our lips blood-stained

Our love constrained

To stretch, reach, teach, lose

Gain

A cure for pain. 

More Unique, Less Perfect

It's not us I miss so much as you
Go ahead and tell all your friends I'm bad news
I guess I should be used to it by now
Scrounging through piles of clothes that no longer fit
To get a mismatched pair of socks
Dress up for the coffee shop down the street
I don't even drink coffee
Mostly, I sit and write letters in the form of poems
Formless enough to fake intent
Malcontent counting dividends
A roll of duct tape around my head
And a place to kick my shoes
Mr. No News
Good enough

Scuttle

Everyone just cut me out.
Some told me they hate me or that I’m awful first, but
Most just ceased all communication.
And it’s happened so many times,
I’ve got no one left.
Sometimes I can see it coming, and
There’s still nothing I can do.
But maybe it’s all my fault
- goddamn common denominator -
Is this such a weird thing, or
Does this happen to other folks too?
Those I care about the most
Want nothing to do with me.
I will be your friend till the end of time,
Or at least until you hate me.
Nah, even then. Even still.
It hurts how much I still love you
In such multitudinous devastation.
Fuck my heart.