lost in the mail

how do i end
this letter i can't send
i can't use "love," because i don't
i can't use "yours," because i'm not and i won't
use "sincerely," because clearly
it's not so serious, maybe i'm delirious
maybe it doesn't matter, maybe it's all the same
i'll just say "cheers" to settle my fears
because at least everyone here knows your name

from this distance
can you still remind me of how i’ve failed
insisting
that after all of these lies the truth will prevail
but i’ll stay up all night
with nothing left to write
to capture the complexities of that long goodbye
getting lost in the mail

how much for a phone call
how much for a text or
any kind of word at all
am i not worth the cost
or did your letter get lost