she said she would never hate me

She said she would never hate me
Nah, fuck that, YOU said you would never hate me
I’m not gonna say she as if you’re not in the room
‘Cause even if you’re not in the room you’re on my mind
And I don’t want to gossip about you to these folks
I want to talk to you and maybe let these folks overhear
Like you eavesdropped on my lonely heart
Then interrupted the one-sided conversation
When you said you would never hate me
And filled me with the hope that maybe I was not only able to love
But was perhaps lovable
You said you would never hate me
Which, I thought, meant that you would always love me
But of course they’re not the same
Because you said you would never hate me
Which, I guess, really meant someday you would forget me
Or at least push me so far away that on this planet that somehow keeps spinning round and round and round your distance makes us back to back
Neither one sure how to turn and look the other in your eye
Like you did when you said you would never hate me
But to hate someone you have to at least care they exist
So much so it burns with a passionate you just want to...
Sounds a lot like love except that it isn’t
‘Cause love can’t help but know that sometimes it’s okay not to make promises
Sometimes it’s okay to admit you don’t know
But you said you knew
You said you would never hate me
But I guess when you have to say, then you know it isn’t true