Wherever I Go (Version 2)

Wherever I go

Gotta take myself along 

With all the baggage that I 

Can carry on 

Wherever I stay 

I can’t stay for long 

I’ll stay up all night 

Waiting for the dawn, then I’m gone 

Whenever I think 

I’ve got this world figured out 

There’s always one more thing 

To hang me upside down 

So whenever I speak 

My fears will shout 

Over every intentioned vowel

And consonant, in a constant howl 

No matter the place or time 

I can’t escape my mind 

Or my past as a shadow 

All I can hear is an echo-o-o

As I grow older I find 

There’s never a good and proper time 

Never enough, never just right, never a clear-cut sign

And a change of scene 

May mean a whole mess of things 

But you can’t ever leave yourself behind 

Wages

I feel like I’m being held hostage by the establishment 

You should know I’m not trying to be contradictory 

just for contradiction sake

I hate when they say that no one ever changes

Most days it feels like that’s all we ever do 

When the only certainty is our uncertainty

While weapons of war are wielded so widely 

With words and wages and corporate cages

When it’s nightmares or this waking life 

I’m carving my name on this carbon knife

Hate Song

I could spend my whole life on hating them 

I’ve done it before and I can do it again 

Paint with strokes broader than the thought

Of everything they are that I’m not 

Till my vision blurs and my conscience ends

I could spend my whole life on hating them

I could spend my whole life on hating you 

I really think I could if I wanted to 

Assume you know how you came across

Every slight every sight of the light we’ve lost

Till there’s a canyon carved between our views

I could spend my whole life on hating you

I could spend my whole life on hating me 

Is it all that surprising how easy it seems 

Regret is my bread and the aftertaste 

Is the thirst I can’t slake from my past mistakes

Till my self-made wounds bleed red-water seas 

I could spend my whole life on hating me 

Think of all we could accomplish 

If we allowed ourselves the benefit of the doubt 

Thinking back, I am astonished

I didn’t think of this before now 

I could spend my whole life on living 

I could spend some time with you 

I could spend my life on loving myself

And learn to love you too

Wherever I Go

Try as I might to find a new kind of life, I know
I've gotta take myself with me wherever I go
Down deep inside my motivations or sensations I invoke
Can't climb above my position or restrict my body to evict my soul
I'm only on the outside looking in at my reflection
And as I stare there's not much there but misdirection
Pull the back pack straps that hold me as I roam
Gotta carry myself with me wherever I go

Stardust

I've been taught that a
Force in motion
Stays in motion,
Unless acted upon by
Another force.
I know this is
True, because you
Forever altered my
Trajectory.

Even now
You inspire me.
Even now
I fly on
The path you set
With our
Collision.

What a cruel
Serendipity
To think you could
So mark me,
So send me,
So spark me
Never ending,
And yet only to
Fire me
Away,
Always farther.

Perhaps, at
The end of all things,
The universe will
Collapse
Back in upon itself,
And the curve
Of eternity
May allow our courses,
Our forces, to
Once more
Act upon eachother.

Gatekeepers idea...

Just because you do not get it doesn't mean that it's not music
Even if it's not your flavor doesn't mean that folks can't choose it
I'm not the arbiter of an art or any kind of movement
Just another fool who falls for beats and bass lines grooving

You don't need gatekeepers if you're tearing down the walls
You don't need the police if there's not state or any laws
You don't need a degree to tell me if you know what love is
You got all you need to achieve peace and rise above this

Silliness insidiously sickening the slip and slides of
Systems which inflict their icky ilk with silky lotion lies

Five Minutes from Now

I’m a mess, did I overdress
My GPS won’t work inside this tunnel
Clearly I can see, my tanks on E
Hopefully that’s all it needs to stomp this rumbling
‘Cause I’ve been waiting for this day
Never thought it would come
And I’ve driven all this way
Still it would be so easy to turn and run, but...

Five minutes from now I’ll walk through the door
And everything will be so much better than before
Five minutes from now I’ll walk on in
And we’ll begin again

I scrounge between the seats
For coins to feed the meter
Can’t touch the cost of a cup
Of coffee, don’t much like the taste either
So I take a breath and push the door
Even though it clearly says to pull
And I take a step and then some more
Thankfully, the tables aren’t all full, ‘cause...

Five minutes from now, you’ll walk through the door
And everything will be so much better than before
Five minutes form now you’ll walk on in
And we’ll begin again

Business slows down, and I look around
Tasting the sound of the barrista’s stare
The sweat on my neck must look just like regret
And you’re not here yet, but I don’t care
‘Cause I’ve been waiting for six years
Hoping you would someday call
I’m sure we’ve both grown up a lot
You may not recognize me at all, but...

 Five minutes from now, you’ll walk through the door
And everything will be so much better than before
Five minutes form now you’ll walk on in
And we’ll begin again

Twenty minutes ago, you had said on the phone
That no, no, for sure I’d see your face
Another twenty or so, again I look at my phone
And I know, yeah I know, but what if I’ve the wrong place
I remember back to the day
Back when we were so damn young
Since then, you’ve pulled far away
I spent this whole time wondering what I’ve done, but...

Five minutes from now, if you walk through the door
I know everything will be so much better than before
Five minutes from now, if you walk on in
Then we’ll begin again

I’m not scared to admit that I know what this is
Biting my chapped lips, maybe I should call you
They’ll be closin’ down soon, I’m just takin’ up room
Was this plan always doom to fall through
How much longer can I stay
I don’t wanna text you too many times
I just hope that you’re okay
No need for a piece of my peace of mind, ‘cause

Five minutes from now, they’ll be locking the door
And everything won’t be so much better than before
Five minutes from now, they’ll probably kick me out
I don’t wanna think about

You said you’d be there for me always
No one ever means that
I’ll love you till my dying day
Don’t know how to take that back
I really wish I could have looked you in the eyes
But I confess, I’m not really the least bit surprised

Five minutes ago, I walked out the door
I think it’s gonna be much different than before
Five minutes ago, you never came
You should know for you I would have stayed

Five minutes ago, I got in my car
And I got as far as I need to be
Five minutes ago, I got the sense
To begin again